Qualifier

You lost your SLAA Supply over Lockdown and blamed lack of connection for your sultry demise into cutting ties with AA Meetings in person…… When really the Women you sought were no longer bought by quotings of the ‘Big Book’, hooking them into a false belief your 24 years of Recovery was solid, Sordid moreContinue reading “Qualifier”

Grateful Greta

Grappling with gracious gratitude, My attitude has improved since taking a break, Like a stake through the heart of a Love Avoidant ❤, the How Programme became an antagonistic ointment for my needs, Exposing my fear, guilt and perfectionism to dangerous extents, it sent my system into overdrive, Lithe in aesthetics, phonetics pleasing to theContinue reading “Grateful Greta”

Endeavour

I’m on a Secret Endeavour to create something clever from a plethora of hidden talents. Manifesting as the days go by, tuning into a lullaby which represents all those times I’ve kept it small, afraid to stand tall. Appalled by the way I spoke to myself and still do at times, a sign to stepContinue reading “Endeavour”

Over and Under

Oversharing leads to undersharing, Overindulgence leads to deprivation, Acting Out leads to Acting In, When will the balance begin? I crave Piggy in the middle, I crave the beige in Lidl, I admire the mediocre Fiddle Player whose scraping by but full of joy 😊 I employ the help of tip top tools to coolContinue reading “Over and Under”

Nerves

I never know what to say, I overdo it because nerves get in the way, delay, pause then respond, conned into patterns of the past, “you won’t be accepted unless you wear a mask”. In group situations, I constantly escape to the loo, to avoid awkward silences and social ques, Then I go and blurtContinue reading “Nerves”

Mind Madness

Stratospherically speaking, my mind needs tweaking, It’s ruminating tendencies leaves me in pieces, Compulsively re-visiting conversations at every occasion. Who said what, where, when and why, even a casual “Hi” has me questioning my own integrity, some levity would be gratefully received, peeved at the fact it’s part and parcel of wrapping me up inContinue reading “Mind Madness”